New Year's Resolutions

So, today, I'm gonna be incredibly original, and write down my own New Year's Resolutions. Mainly as a way for me to remember them, by writing them down. I did some research on these so called resolutions before this post, and did you know that about only 12% of people ever actually accomplish them? That's pretty damn low. That's why, I'm gonna prove to the world that I can do what I set my mind to! YEAH!

Okay, so, resolution one:

Complete my first album.
This shouldn't be too tricky. I mean I already have finished half the songs. Kind of. I'll probably need to re-record them, cause they sound kind of shite right now. But I thought a cool way to motivate me to do this, is to say that I won't shave ever, until it's finished. Hahaha I hate having an unshaven face. So if I force myself to not shave until it's finished, I'm gonna want to finish it a lot sooner, and not get distracted!

Resolution two:

Be more aware of my surroundings.
I'm always bashing into things. So I reckon it'd be a good idea to, ya know, not.

Resolution three:

Be nicer to my Brother..
He's an alright kid. Just he gets on my nerves a lot. And on purpose too! But I suppose this will also be a good lesson in tolerance. Weeell, I'll try and be a better brother for him. I won't be here for too long, and I don't want his only memories of me being of some guy who's a total short fused prick.

Resolution four:

I don't really know yet.
I'm thinking of having 5. So, I'll just edit it when I've come up with the next two.

Soul

Ya know, 

there was a time in my life when I thought there was no such thing as soul. And that it was stupid to even think that there was some floaty thing or whatever that just lives in your stomach and gives you feeling and stuff. 

Now when you describe a soul like that, maybe it would make sense to pass it all off as stupid.

But I've been doing some, "soul searching" I guess you could say, lately, and from the looks of things. Maybe, just maybe, I actually do have one. 

Which is strange, because I never thought I'd say that.

Most people say that you have to have faith and believe in stuff like this for it to all count. But I reckon you don't need to believe in something for it to exist. I mean, I don't need to believe in the existence of cheese for there to be cheese in the world. So if I were to one day decide that cheese no longer exists, it wouldn't just disappear off the face of the earth.

Hahah although that would b e pretty funny.

But anyway, my point is, I never really believed in the possibility of a soul before, but that didn't stop me from actually feeling all the stuff that soul's supposedly make me feel. So.. maybe I do have one. Then again, I'm pretty sure what the soul makes you feel is just what the brain makes me feel. So your soul is your brain. Hah. No shit. Makes more sense.

But then why do I feel stuff in my chest sometimes? Does my brain just tell my feelings to go hang out in my left atrium?? Probably. 

Anyway I think I've talked myself into a circle enough for one early morning. 

Woo doggie, I'm tired.

G'night

Sleep

Ever get that feeling when you're really tired, but realise you can't sleep, cause you have to be awake in about 2 hours?

Probably not.

But I'm feeling like that right now. 

Got a car to catch in two hours, and if I sleep now, I know I won't be able to wake up to catch it. 

Aw crap, I haven't even packed yet!

And now I'm sounding like a whiny bitch!

Sorry. I'm just sleep deprived,

with nothing better to do.

Except maybe pack..

Recap!

Hah, I forgot about you again.

So it's been about 4 months since I last posted anything, so I reckon now's a good time to start up again!
I won't say anything about this being the last time I forget about this blog, or that I promise to always update it from now on, since whenever I do that, 4 months just seem to slip away.

And boy! What an action packed 4 months these have been!
Seriously, I never would have thought it would go down like this.
A lot has happened.
Too much to write about all of it.
Maybe I'll just give a highlight of each month.
Or something.
I dunno.
STARTIIIING OOONN:

AUGUST

Some guy who I knew for a while left for England this month.
It was pretty sad because this guy was my best friend.
But it's okay because I still see him now and then.
He's still a total douchebag.

SEPTEMBER


School started again.
I'm doing the IB right now.
A lot of people warned me and told me how difficult it is. Saying how I'm gonna be stressed all the time and that I'll be studying for the next two years. Apparently I won't have a social life or sleep either. This is pretty funny cause if anything, my social life has improved greatly from last year! I have more than 2 friends now!!
Haha yeah, sad, I know.
But I'm happy now.
And still haven't been stressed yet.
Yet.

OCTOBER


Half term!
My friend came over from England.
It was pretty cool.


NOVEMBER


I went to some Island with a funny name.
That was also pretty cool.
I got to know a few people better, and I wasn't a complete social retard too!
During the night it rained really heavily and knocked down our shelter almost completely.
It could have been a disaster, but we ended up fixing it in the rain.
Then when we finally got around to lying down and sleeping, it turned out my legs were too long to be covered by the blanket, so when I woke up it didn't look like it at first, but I actually had about a million mosquito bites on my legs!
But I didn't mind that though cause I got to hold this awesome girl's hand the night before, when it was cold and stormy.
It was kind of unexpected and I didn't know what would happen.. But ya know, she didn't seem too weirded out by it. So that's a relief!

DECEMBER


School ended and I went to England for a bit.


Kay. Sick of writing now.

Bye!

Dreams

Most of the time, I dream about one day becoming this big, amazing, famous rock star. And everyone cheers my bands name, as we break into our opening song (which the whole crowd knows the words to).
But i'm not that one-track minded.. Really..
Once I dreamed about saving this princess once. She had radiant gold hair and eyes so pure and blue i could see right into my soul! Cheesy right? Cliche right? I know. I was ashamed of myself. My imagination is terrible even in dreams! Anyway, I saved this girl along with my best friend. But he got all the credit from the king. But i didn't care.. All i could think of was her. Then we magically appeared on a red brick roof. And under the crescent moon, she thanked me. Personally. Wink Wink. But i mean. Don't get me wrong. I'm not some sex crazed weirdo either.. Oh wait, I mean, We didn't have sex either.. I think.. Anyway, anyway, Another dream i had: Me, my best friend, the girl of my dreams (Not the princess) And a bunch of other people, like this girl called Murielle, we were all sitting around a table. We were passing around some strange purple vial. It turned out to be a really long lighter, that created a green flame. We all took turns sniffing it.. I watched all my friends do it first. The fire just slithering up their noses like a worm.
Then When i did it, I actually experienced some kind of psychadelic high! It was so cool! The world went completely green around border of my vision, and it was all wavy like what you see on an old TV screen. Then everything went black and white, spun around, and i passed out. Or died. Can't remember.

Don't do drugs kids.

Lonely.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention just then. I'm really lonely. My situation is much like the song Longview again! Aaaaayy!! Yeah. My mum even told me to go get a job. Can you believe that? My dad did too. I was gonna go get a job at boost, this juice bar thing. So i went and asked if they had any free places available, cause there was a sign saying they were hiring young, exuberant and exciting folk. Yeah, the exact description of me. Or the opposite.. Anyway, the dude at the counter said "come back tomorrow"
But i uh.. didn't. Came back the next week instead, and wouldn't you know! The hiring sign had been taken away.

heh.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Hi blog! I forgot about you! :D

Guess what!? My exams are already over! AND i'm not stupid! It's conclusive. I passed everything. Even shitty ol' English. I got A* for both tests! Yay! Oh.... Apparently that makes me a nerd.. OH WELL. I DON'T CARE! NOPE! You know why?

Cause I win.

Live to win.

Fuck yeah.

Longview

It's a song.

I know, I know, surprised to see me type up another concoction so soon? It hasn't even been one minute since I last published. But what can I say? I think I'm on a roll. No self control. I'm blowing off steam with methemphetamine.

Not really. But that ties me back up nicely to the title of this piece of shit.

Longview is a song. A song I am rather fond of at this time. To put it straight. It's about masturbation. And being lonely. And pathetic.

Somewhere along the line I decided to make it my own little theme song. I don't know if that's entirely legal since I wasn't the even one who wrote it. But then again CSI got all of those The Who songs for their theme songs. So ya know.

I take longview to be like a story about a guy, who doesn't really know what to do with his life. He feels completely washed up, even though there's nothing out there stopping him from changing his life around. He feels like shit, but is just so used to it, he kind of just stopped giving a rats arse. Oh and he also seems to pleasure himself an insurmountable amount. Which is funny to me.

Now I'm going to sit around and watch the phone and wait for someone, anyone, to call me.

Blank Slate

Here we go again.

To be honest, I don't really know why I'm bothering with this again right now. It's such a crucial time for me. What with my final exams coming up and whatnot. But..

I DUNNO

The thought just came to me while in a car tonight:

I'm going to go and write useless crap on the Internet, for anyone who really wants to waste their time with my endless shenanigans and rants.

Hehe. Shenanigans.

Yeah, I figure with a name as ridiculous as "Freegal Smith", I can get away with saying pretty much anything. Too bad I'm boring. Already middle aged and I feel like a washed up piece of cardboard you find drifting off the side of your infinity pool and little pieces of me have ripped off and clogged the pool's filtering system, so now you've got a terrible case of pool scum and bacteria growing on the surface. That's what each of these blog posts are. Distraught little pieces of crap, of microscopic significance and real purpose other than being a nuisance.

So do i sound like a big pouty pessimist yet?

Enjoy the rest of my scum.