Alien vs predator

I sneeze alot yesterday. and that got me reflecting. NO. and then I got to swear abit, like, just a random fuck. shit. booger. You know what I'm talking about, winky face!

Sub-sub-conscious

have you ever wondered if our sub-conscious has its own sub-conscious?

Probably not; but I have.

So I had a dream the other day, and it was the kind of dream where it feels as if I learnt a little bit about myself. An epiphenomenal dream, caused by the chemical serotonin. It appears I've got some kind of sub-conscious level fear I think. That's what my dream seemed to suggest to me anyway.. But dreams can be so unreliable. If anything, this fear isn't even in the sub-conscious, but in my, uh, non-sub-conscious? Just my conscious I suppose.

ANYWAYS, lets not get bogged down by that. Just reflecting.

Later tonight CAS week will finally get started. I'm really looking forward to it. Hope it'll be as fun as it seems in my head..

That's when it dawned upon me. What am I gonna do when I can't vent out, reflect, or anything for a whole week on this blog!? Meh, I dunno. I'm sure I'll be fine. Totally won't go crazy.

Hah. hah. HAHAA!

Yeah alright then, guess I'll go watch TV while I'm waiting. See ya later.

Head Goo

Right now I've got this image of my brain just kind of liquefying in my head; oozing out of my ears and nose. It's pretty disgusting to be honest. Even for my imagination standards.It's all grey. Grey and thick. I suppose you could even liken it to some sort of putrid grey matter gravy.

Yum yum! Perfect for your steak and fries!

Hahah, ahh. It's gonna be a full on week this week. I can really feel it. Got an economics IA, practice IOC on a book I still haven't finished reading, an essay on that very same book, a play that just doesn't seem 100% there yet, ooh and I'm leaving the island on Friday.

I'm actually really looking forward to that last part. A whole week of adventure! Hah.. Planting trees and climbing a mountain. I hope I'm ready for that. I mean, I feel ready, but that could just be an optimistic delusion, ya know? Hah! Naah, it'll be fine.

Okay, I am looking forward to the play too. I know I'll have fun on the two nights we finally play it. It's just this long winded lead up that really takes it out of you. I think my biggest fear with that is just becoming redundant in the whole musical side of things. But I am trying to fix that. So we'll see how that turns out!

Fuck, I think I just hate homework.
Oh really? No shit.
Yeah yeah I know. Like it wasn't obvious already, right?
Why are you talking to yourself? Saddo.
Hahah hey, that's not very nice..
Yeah I know, I'm sorry.
That's okay I guess. We all say things we don't mean sometimes.

Aw, isn't that nice? Conflict with resolution at the end. Feels good, don't it?

Ah yes, here's something I'll put up to remind myself in case I forget. Straighten up your back, sonny. I wonder if just getting a metal pipe in place of my spine will be easier. Hah, aaaww yeah. A mushy brain and a synthetic spine. What else should I add to this grotesque figure? Might as well just replace my face with that creepy mask I made. That's like the whipped cream on top of the pancakes with a side of ice-cream which has chocolate sprinkles infused with coffee and a cherry (even though I don't like cherries) on top. Mmmm mmm, delicioso.

And to end with an anacrusis, overall this weekend was pretty good! Maybe even really good in fact. IS THAT EVEN HUMANLY POSSIBLE!? Yes. Apparently it is.

Daymare

I know. Since when did I get so attractive, right?

The idea came to me in a dream.

Well not really, but it would have been cool if it did. Nah, this is just a mask I made today for my art class. I think I'm kind of getting the hang of it!

Now the only thing left to do is to go to gurney one day with this face on. Anyone interested in joining me??

Peaceful Night

So its finally the weekend after exams. I can finally enjoy some sleep that i feel like i need. Buuut, for some reason, i can't sleep. Great!

I don't really mind though. I don't think i really want to sleep just yet. It is only 2 35 AM afterall! No, instead I've got this burning feeling coming from inside me. I'd say its some long dormant passion that I've kept swallows soqm for so long, but it's probably just indigestion.

It's quite nice ya know? Just lying in bed with huge headphones on just listening to a play list of all my songs set on random. It just went from a little Japanese song to the killers! Exciting!

I've always liked layers in music. Being surrounded by this music with no sound coming from outside my headphones creates a unique type of sound. Its like my head can just concentrate on one thing for once instead of rushing up and down continuously. If only i could find this kind of inner peace when i'm composing or even just playing guitar. Maybe I'd actually make something good! Hahaha. Nah. Ooh radiohead. They always have good layers.

So half an hour late was in our first "battle" of the bands last Friday. I say "battle" because it was really just a popularity contest. It was great how my good friend Thomas came to support us. Oh wait.. He didn't.. Hahah. Nah i don't blame him though. He probably would have just wanted to sit down during the disco anyway. I suppose that's what we all do for a majority of the time. But that was still fun i guess. Well, most of the time anyway. Oh yeah, I'm going off on a tangent already. Hah, guess my mind is still just racing around from one thought to the other.. Oh that got really bad during my economics higher level test. I must have just zoned off from the test for about 20 minutes before remembering where i was.. Hmm.. Hope i did alright in that one.

Anyway! As i was saying, the battle was just a popularity contest. So i guess that means we aren't as popular as a bunch of year 10s. Damn, that makes me so disappointed... Haaahah.

You're just. A fuck. I can't explain it cause i think you suck!! Yeeeaaaaahhhh fuck off and die!!! Wooooooo. Hmm. That song wasn't as relaxing as paranoid android. I wonder why. Oh look, now it's somebody i used to know. Do dodo do dodo.

Uh so what was the point of this post again..? Neh i forgot. I think there was supposed to be some lesson learned through self reflection like normally. But nope. Not today.

Hey i wasn't so bad at talking this week. Well, i was at some points.. But i did start a conversation or two. Which made me super ecstatic! But now that initial high has kind of subsided.. I tried telling myself Friday was gonna be a good day the night before, to see if it really would be. It was okay. Hahah. But you know what's really good? I haven't been hit in the groin for such a long time i can't even remember the last time it happened! Which is good, because it really hurts. And pain is bad..... Duh... I mean, unless you're a massochist. Then i suppose it would be good for you? But i'm not, so, yeah.

Almost time for KK and tree planting. Im quite looking forward to that. Hah! No time to worry about the two impending essays and practice IOC. Its just time to think of finally getting a break from the monotony of school. To be honest, i used to like that actually. Having everything planned with my timetable, knowing more or less what to expect. Made me feel more self assured. Less anxious. But i dunno now.. Seems it all just makes me stir-crazy now. I just want a change! Oh but i did get that. Exam week. Yeah that was pretty fun i guess. Except for the Spanish comprehension. I must have been sitting there watching the clock for 50 minutes aftwe i finished.. The worst part is i probably did really shit in it! Haha but i did try my best anyway.

Alright then, i guess this is long enough now to put off anyone from reading it. Its also 3 10AM now too. Hmmm.

I'm hungry.

Language

Oh English, there's nothing more I love to do than speak you, hear you and write you...

But why do you have to have so much baggage with you?

If you didn't exist, essays wouldn't exist. Verbal abuse would be eradicated from the planet (I'm aware there is more than just one language in the world so now I'm referring to every language. In case you didn't know...). Stupid oral commentaries would be nothing.

NOTHING, YOU HEAR ME? NOTHING!

Ah, ha. But I'm getting ahead of myself.

Without language I wouldn't be here writing this for you. And that would be such a shame, right? Hah.

Nah, language is cool. English is cool. Japanese is cool. Spanish is cool. I can't speak for any of the other languages since I don't know them well enough. But I'm sure they're cool too. Probably.

Now I'm off to write two fucking essays!

Well not really. Maybe I'll start next week. Haaaaaa. Old habits die hard.

Examify

So here we are.
Back to the end of year exams.
I remember one of my first blog posts, was saying how I've got my year 11 exams.

Haha, it's pretty funny when I think about it now. At the time I thought those exams were at least some-what important. But now it seems that they were really just for nothing. If anything, they were a time filler before IB.

These are only "mocks" this year, but they're actually more important than the whole of year 10 and 11 combined. It's pretty interesting how small everything seems in hindsight. And yet, even though I realise this, I'm just not really phased by it..

I dunno, am I just apathetic cause I'm  tired? It's been such a short year. I can't believe how fast it has gone. Everything has just slipped by, right through my fingers. It's pretty surreal. I remember being 15, 14; time moved by so slowly. Like I just couldn't wait for the year to be over. I'd count down the days just wishing for school to end.

But now.. With everything moving by so fast; sometimes I wish that there were more hours in a day. Like 30 hours. That'd be pretty good. Cause then, you can allocate 10 hours for sleep, 10 hours for leisure, 2 hours for food, and 6 hours to study and 2 hours for travel time in between. It just seems 24 doesn't hold enough. I mean it does. We've been living quite adequately with 24 hours for such a long time. But still. Who doesn't want a little more time?

Hah, I sound like an old man. Heaving on about how I'm running out of time. But it's alright though. I know that's not really the case. Once these exams are over, and then IB, I'm sure everything will go back to normal. Well, relatively anyway.

Hm, so it seems this is my 50th post too. Not too bad for a years worth of crap.

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