God damn dreams, waking me a whole god damn hour too early. And for what? The dream was total Shit. The only thing it succeeded in doing was making me feel even worse. Yeah yeah, i get it, i know that it's all messed up, deconstructed, dead. But even my own subconscience is just driving that god damn nail even further. Why? I must be secretly masochistic and this is my dream's way pf telling me. But it's not like i like this. No fucking way. All it does is remind me of what's gone away, and when i wake up all that's left is a feeling of bleh. I still don't fully understand what went wrong. Maybe nothing did. But to me, it sure as hell feels like it.
This is what I get for going to bed at 10 30.
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